

Last week submissions opened for the 2011 Luke Bitmead Writer's Bursary. Our first winner Andrew Blackman has kindly written us a blog about his experiences. For information and details of how to apply please click here.
Winning the Luke Bitmead Writer’s Bursary, and what it meant for me
I remember the award ceremony very clearly. It was a hot July night, and I was sweating in the corner of a crowded room. “Go and network,” I said to myself. “That’s the point of coming. You won’t have won, but at least you can meet some publishers and agents.” I didn’t network, of course: I sat in the corner as I always do at these things, nursing a pint of Guinness and talking to my then-girlfriend, now-wife Genie.
Ten of us had been shortlisted, and they handed out the awards in reverse order. When it got to the top three and my name hadn’t been read out, I was excited. Top two, I was thrilled. But when the second place writer had been named and I was the only one left, I started to panic. What if there had been a mistake, and I wasn’t getting any prize at all? My writer’s ego had been so bruised and battered by the rejection slips dropping through our letter-box with the regularity of credit-card statements that I couldn’t grasp the concept of winning. I’d conditioned myself to fail. I’d prepared consoling stories for myself, but not a winner’s speech. When I was called to the front and handed an enormous plastic cheque, I mumbled some confused words of thanks to Luke’s family and Legend Press, smiled automatically for the camera, and spent the rest of the evening shaking people’s hands, accepting the congratulations and the free drinks, and feeling completely disorientated.
The following February, my novel On the Holloway Road was published. I followed it from bookshop to bookshop, never tiring of seeing it on the shelves. Due to an alphabetical coincidence, it was often placed next to Luke Bitmead’s wonderful book White Summer, which I thought was appropriate. Without Luke, after all, my book would not have existed. Everything I’ve enjoyed over the last couple of years – all the sales, all the readings, the signings, the radio interviews, the film rights – all of it has come about because of Luke and the efforts of his family to create something positive out of the tragedy of his death. To change somebody else’s life for the better is, in my opinion, the most worthwhile thing a human being can do. I hope Luke’s mother Elaine and his sister Tiffany know how much they changed mine. I’m also eternally grateful to Tom at Legend Press for taking a chance on me and my book and for pushing it, with the help of Lucy and Lauren, for all it was worth.
Writing can still be a struggle, of course. The money from winning the Bursary disappeared a long time ago, and although my novel has done well, I still have to do other work to make ends meet. I still doubt myself every morning when I sit down to write, and I still have to deal with rejections and disappointments. But that sweaty July night in 2008 changed something for me. No matter what else happens now, I have written a novel, won an award and had it published. It was my dream, and I accomplished it. It’s a wonderful feeling.
I can’t recommend the Luke Bitmead Writer’s Bursary highly enough. If you want to be a writer, stop making excuses and devote all your spare time from now until 31st August to hammering your manuscript into shape. Getting published is notoriously difficult, and I know very well how badly the process can wear you down. This contest, however, is like somebody throwing you a rope. I’d really suggest reaching out and grabbing it.
Andrew
Andrew's novel On the Holloway Road is available to order by clicking here